I absolutely did not want to get up for work this morning. I did not want to get dressed or brush my teeth. Or do my makeup. I did not want to make that one hour-long commute. Of course I begrudgingly did all of those things.
My weekend started last Wednesday. My friend Keila was in town and she mentioned going to a Emeli Sande concert. Now, I listened to her album a year ago and was unimpressed. But I do love the ‘Next To Me’ song they play on the radio so I gave her album another listen. I’m not sure what I didn’t hear the first time but by the fifth song, I was purchasing my ticket to the concert that night. Without a doubt, Emeli has a beautiful voice but it was her lyrics that won me over. She was singing my life! ‘Clown’, ‘Mountains’ and ‘River’ are definitely my favorite tunes by her.
I follow this pretty dope guy on Instagram named Darien Birks. From his pictures, I knew that he was a talented designer and had a fondness for classic tunes but I didn’t know that he actually produced music. After downloading one of his mixes a while ago, I was sold on his skills. A few days ago, he and Allan Cole (collaboratively called The Styvesants) released a project dubbed ‘Refined’. It consists of 25 songs and 25 cool covers.
Before the jazz festival this past weekend, I’d never heard of this woman. All of my friends were excited to see her perform and here I was embarrassed because I should have known who she is! I love jazz. So anyway, I’ve been listening to some of her music since then and I’m in love with her voice. Her sound is like a tranquil symphonic wonderland. Super smooth and tender. And what she does with her mouth (no homo)…
Now that I think about it, her voice reminds me of Amel Larrieux’s. If they did a duet…man!
Have you ever laid in bed at night wondering whether you would open your eyes the next morning? Scary, right? But for many of us, when our alarm blares, by the grace of God, we open our eyes again. I don’t know about you but sometimes I just want to exhale. Whew! I made it another day! I’m not sure why He saw fit for me to live but I’m sure glad He did. Being alive…it truly is a blessing.
I woke up in the morning feeling fresh to death
I’m so blessed, yes yes
I went to sleep stressed, woke up refreshed
I’m so blessed, yeah yes
Water in my face and everything is in its place
Peace of mind even my grace
I’m so blessed, yes yes yes
It was right before bed when I first heard Janelle Monae’s song, Q.U.E.E.N. I thought to myself, “what is this noise that I am I listening to right now?” By the second and third listen the next day, I finally realized how perfect it actually was. Oh yes, Miss Monae brought it with the funky beats and hip-hop slash gospel tones. But more than that, her lyrics spoke to the very thoughts I’ve been mulling over for quite some time. It was at that moment that I decided to reclaim my Queendom. I decided to reclaim the respect that I feel I’ve lost along my way.
“Even if it makes others uncomfortable, I will love who I am.”
I don’t believe marriage is for everyone but I do believe companionship is.
I don’t believe in happily ever after but I do believe in moments of happiness.
I don’t believe in any right answer or right way but I do believe things work when they should.
I try my best to at least spend one day over the weekend catching up on rest. That never happens. One moment it’s Friday evening, the next moment it’s Sunday morning. We really need a day between Saturday and Sunday just to relax.
I spent Friday night at a club. Totally not my scene but Vanquish is one of the nicer clubs in Atlanta. Still, clubs give me the heebie-geebies so we left pretty early and I took myself to dinner.
Saturday, I rested up until the Lianne La Havas concert.
A few years back, a friend invited me to see The Nutcracker. I’m always amazed by the agility of dancers and I’m further mesmerized by the music. Ballet and sweet sounds in one? I’m all in. There’s the Nutcracker: sweet and soothing, and then there’s New Choreographic Voices: emotional and tantalizing. I wasn’t sure what to expect as I’ve never heard of the group before. As the production began, though, I knew I was about to experience something astonishing.
Have you ever been so happy that it made you sad?
Okay so, random. I’m in love with sadness. Like, I’m immensely intrigued by it…
I try to understand what makes people sad. Why they do certain things when they’re sad. I try to figure out the stories behind brilliant songs that are created from a sad place and time. There’s something so raw and beautiful about sadness. When you’re sad, you’re open to being vulnerable. I can connect to that. Deeply.
“I have found that the saddest people are also the funniest, and only those who understand complexity can communicate simplicity.”