Everyone has insecurities, right? Mine might not seem as important to you but the insecurity still remains. One of mine right now is my teeth. It’s so funny because so many people tell me I have nice teeth or a nice smile. But I absolutely abhor my teeth. They are not white or straight. I hate hate hate the spaces in betweenthem and the fact that they seem to be widening with age. I’ve concluded that I do need braces but the mere thought gives me anxiety. Will people call me brace face?! Will I have to stop eating steak?! If I look twelve now, will I look nine with braces?! Will I be able to chew gum?! Will I ever SMILE again?!?! No seriously, these are real concerns of mine. I pride myself in my smile. So the mere thought of not smiling until my teeth are fixed makes me want to faint. I’ve taken to practice smiling with my mouth closed. To smize (smile with your eyes). Meh. I guess.
Anyway, I was really tripping off of the whole thing. I don’t want to stop smiling when I get braces. Smiling makes me happy. One song came to mind and I thought I’d share some of the lyrics with you. If/when I eventually get braces, I’ll have this song on repeat to get me through it.
I Smile – Kirk Franklin
I smile, even though I’m hurt see I smile,
I know God is working so I smile,
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile, smile..
it’s so hard to look up when you look down.
Sure would hate to see it when you give up now
You look so much better when you smile, so smile.