Living fearlessly

I am my own hinderance sometimes. I have come to realize that. But I wonder, how long before I realize that standing still will not get me anywhere?

I have this huge fear (one of a thousand fears) that I am not smart enough to pursue my dreams. Who am I to be an inspiration to young girls when I’ve had some corrupted relationships with women myself? Can I really get the job and get it done? Will they be interested in me? What can I offer? How can I be an asset? Will I fail?

I suppose these are the questions that keep me from looking for a new job. I suppose these are the questions that keep me from making the right phone calls and connecting with the right people. I suppose these are the questions that are keeping me here, in Atlanta, my comfort zone. But I want to be challenged. I want to live fearlessly. I want to truly be free and living my dreams.

I’m an idea person. I come up with awesome ideas. I know how to set a plan. But implementation is not my thing. Fear kicks in and it’s like I forgot all the planning that I created. I’m not really sure how to stop that.

I have an awesome idea that I’m finally working on right now. This one I know will be a hit for a lot of women. The success will be in knowing that I can accomplish something that I’ve created. I don’t want to wait anymore.

On my birthday, from the urging of my friend, I made a wish. All I said was, “God, show me the way.” That was my breath prayer. This is my baby step. I know I can do this thing. I’m excited to get started and I can’t wait to share it with everyone. Two years after graduating college and I finally feel that I’m ready to step out on faith and make my little difference in the world.

P.S. Thanks GG and Jess for all of your encouragement!

Listen to the passion of your soul, set the wings of your spirit free and let not a single song go unsung. -Sylvanna Rosetti

5 thoughts on “Living fearlessly

  1. My friend James on my birthday encouraged me to start to run. I was not sure how to start but he told me just take that one step. I’m really glad to read you’re taking that one step. Blessings on your journey, the world isn’t ready for your greatness. Peace

  2. I encourage you to start running. If you’re having doubts, start off jogging. But just do it. It is an amazing and exhilarating feeling. I started March 1st on and off. When you feel like you can’t keep going, continue to push yourself. You’ll feel great, I promise.
    Thank you for your kind words, Verb!

  3. I’ll tell you this…working as a counselor I had this thought a LOT “how can I help some else when I’m just as crazy as them?!” The thing is…they will help you just as much as you’ll help them. You earn the right to call yourself an authority on it because you have become aware of your own “stuff” and therefore can control for it.
    For example, if I have a problem with racists and a client of mine comes in degrading a race, I can check my reaction because I already know that personal barrier of mine exists. Then I can take a deep breath and do what I’ve been trained to do.
    It’s okay to be afraid, just don’t become paralyzed by it.

  4. *chanting* “do it do it do it do it do it!”

    I love how Kelly Diels (www.kellydiels.com) says to make friends with fear. Fear does not have to be the enemy. It’s not really going to go away. So, why not make friends with it? It will be with you, but it won’t stop you.

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