I am my own hinderance sometimes. I have come to realize that. But I wonder, how long before I realize that standing still will not get me anywhere?
I have this huge fear (one of a thousand fears) that I am not smart enough to pursue my dreams. Who am I to be an inspiration to young girls when I’ve had some corrupted relationships with women myself? Can I really get the job and get it done? Will they be interested in me? What can I offer? How can I be an asset? Will I fail?
I suppose these are the questions that keep me from looking for a new job. I suppose these are the questions that keep me from making the right phone calls and connecting with the right people. I suppose these are the questions that are keeping me here, in Atlanta, my comfort zone. But I want to be challenged. I want to live fearlessly. I want to truly be free and living my dreams.
I’m an idea person. I come up with awesome ideas. I know how to set a plan. But implementation is not my thing. Fear kicks in and it’s like I forgot all the planning that I created. I’m not really sure how to stop that.
I have an awesome idea that I’m finally working on right now. This one I know will be a hit for a lot of women. The success will be in knowing that I can accomplish something that I’ve created. I don’t want to wait anymore.
On my birthday, from the urging of my friend, I made a wish. All I said was, “God, show me the way.” That was my breath prayer. This is my baby step. I know I can do this thing. I’m excited to get started and I can’t wait to share it with everyone. Two years after graduating college and I finally feel that I’m ready to step out on faith and make my little difference in the world.
Listen to the passion of your soul, set the wings of your spirit free and let not a single song go unsung. -Sylvanna Rosetti